“loaded dice”

“loaded dice”
intense nervousness
fear of falling
afraid to play
a game
if not certain
of a win
[second is just
the first loser.
there’s no excuse
for losing.]
sickness creeping
cancer devours
destroyed
from within
no excuse
mess you’ve made
[excuses are
for losers.
cheaters never win
and losers never win
unless the winners stay home
and even then
it’s just loaded dice
in my eyes]
paranoic breathing
burnt by insecurity
failing
fear of failing
[all the fans
cheering in the stands]
success cannot
penetrate
self doubt
some
are just
poor gamblers
in a world of
loaded dice
and questions
[seeing is only
treasured by the blind
fortunes only by
the unfortunate
peace only by
the restless
sleep
only
by
the damned
first place
only by those
destined
to eternal second]
second is only
the most pridefallen
of losers.