"acceptance"

it's been a weird day for me.. this poem means a lot in my eyes.. and was a very emotional work for me. thanks for reading.
*HUGS*
"acceptance"
i apologize for all my labyrinths
and my lies
but i just wanted to see
the pride shining in your eyes
i can't stand the disgust you can't disguise
i never wanted to ever see that in your eyes
can't you see
i've got to live life the way life works for me
and maybe i am wasteful, father
maybe i am lazy
you've got to accept that i have flaws
that i am not the child i've appeared to be
and after all of this has done,
well,
what i need most is for you to love me
i know you want what's best
and i know you want what's right
and i know you want me to grow up
to live a good life
but sometimes there is nothing you can do
to change an old dog set in their ways
but encourage my accomplishments
and applause where i'm due praise
maybe i could be more than this,
BUT MAYBE I AM TIRED DADDY
tired of trying to be so much
tired of trying to stand so tall
tired of trying to make everyone love me
for a person i am not and cannot ever be
i'm so tired
and maybe i need some space
to have some rest from life