Warning! Incoming Sad poem
My heart beat faster when I saw you
It thought that at last the lonliness was over
It sang to hear your voice and your sounds
Soaring for the first time in ages
But now it's done.
You don't feel that way about me
It's wings are gone
removed quickly and painfully
crashing to the ground,
My heart shatters once more
I'm so tired of putting it back together
I don't want to feel anymore
It always hurts.

I hear the ocean calling
The sea-longing that all my kin share
I see them, my kin, and they beckon to me
"Too long with the second born you have taried"
"Thier world is not meant for you"
"They rush about, cramming all they can"
"In that brief life of thiers"
"You will only get hurt again if you stay"
"No virus or infirmaty of old age will slay you"
"But sorrow can"
"You must come home, board the white ship"
"And leave thier world to them"
"Dying of sorrow is worse than any sword"
"Come home, lost one, come home"
I see the sails of the white ship,
And I weep
For I know in my heart they are right
I must leave before I fade
But I can not move.
My heart is breaking
And my tears mingle with the waves that reach the shore
And are lost
As I am.

Bittersweet

I was inspired to write this today, I'll tell the story afterwards if you like...
Bittersweet
I passed her in the hall today
She smiled sweetly and said "Hello"
I grinned back and replied
As my heart sang and my feet began
To walk on air

The Feeling faded moments later
As I realized
I would never move in your circles
It would never be more than
A friendly "hello" and bright smile

I would give just about anything
To read your mind for just a moment
To see if that smile means more
That will never be
I must accept this

I will be Cyrano to your Roxanne
Loving from afar
Loving by proxy
Worshiping her smile
Because that's all I'll ever have.

Please tell me what you think..should I keep writing these, or quit
while I'm ahead?

I stand at the outskirts of town
Looking and listening
Seeing happy groups and loving couples
Feeling envious and ashamed

I let the sights and sounds wash over me
Rolling and Reeling
Basking in the emotions of others
Wishing I could join in

I walk away
Slowly and quietly
Burying the sounds in the crunch of my boots
Wanting what I can't have

Sorry if I bummed anyone out..been feeling rather low lately..

I must guard my heart
I can not let it go where it wills
It would be unseemly
You were but kind and friendly
To an old fool
Who hasn't known that much kindness
You caught me up in friendship
Stunning me with inner beauty
Long before I ever saw you
Your words fill this old fool
With delight and wonderment
For how can someone like you
Be my friend?
I am your knight,
And I shall be with you
In the old style of courtly love
Guarding you against ill will
Being your friend and loving it
And stepping aside when the one
You are promised to takes your hand
I am an old fool
And I must guard my heart..