Somebody please kick me,
When I am down...
So I at least know,
That someone is around...

I'm just a nobody,
That you let walk by...
I'm just a freak,
Unbearibly shy...

Thank you for hating,
Every part of me...
It's not the attention,
I so desprately need...

I'm glad that you don't,
Show me respect...
I'm perfectly fine,
Rotting with neglect...

Thank you for spitting,
Upon my face...
My lowly presence,
Is everyone's disgrace...

I am your scapegoat,
It's the blame that I take...
You bind me in chains,
And burn me at the stake...

I doubt you will miss me,
When I have gone...
Then just my ghost,
Will be screaming this song...

I stood here today
Trying to see the real me
And I found that
I do not exist in your eyes

You wont talk to me
You constantly are berating
I can't get close
Without wearing a disguise

My soul is fragile
But you neglected its beat
And dropped it on purpose
Laughing as it shattered

The bits of broken glass
Are cutting through the hands
The hands that held you
From a distant land

I rest my head on the wall
The room is dark and bleek
And I think of nothing
But your figure

The torment is unbearable
And I wanna take this glass
You've set before me
And make your hands red too...

I want to set this world on fire.
I see people,
Falling in love.
I see it all the time.
But it's so unfair,
To me...

No one wants me,
Is what they say.
I'm broken down and sick,
Still with bills to pay...
Thrown to the wolves,
Just another dirty boy...
The graveyard; his sandbox...
The bones are his toys...

The fire started with society...
And its disgust for me...
Made you put on a blindfold...
So you couldn't see me...

But can't you see the hate?
Can't you see it's burning?

I want to set this world ablaze,
And end every lovers' days,
My heart is trapped inside the maze...

I am connected to this life...
This umbilical cord is a noose...
Please cut it off...
Burn it away with my hate.

Fuel the fire.

Better you get the hug outta the way NOW, and then go get stinkin' drunk! Now here's a little bastard ditty I just cooked up...

I'll take me beer,
One ale or two!
A shot of tequila,
One more and I'm through!
I'm still not that drunk,
So pass me some gin,
And keep me on drinkin',
Till you see me grin!
Get more o' that hard stuff,
Like brandy and wine...
It may not be great,
But it beats turpentine!
Please gimme an ale,
And Fill up me cup,
I'll Drink till I'm stupid;
Don't know which way is up!
Just for the brew,
I'd sell you my car...
For that tasty ol' ale,
Served at the Village Bar!

Imagine that Smashmouth or Sugar Ray is signing it)

I'm feeling kinda helpless,
Maybe a bit confused,
But I think it may be natural,
When you've been abused.

I know it's hard now,
It's just hard to understand,
That the love that we once had,
Has sunk into the sand.

I'm NOT really friendly,
And I doubt I'm sweet.
But the sex was great,
And so was your body heat.

I can't finish what I start,
But I make sure it gets done,
I always stay in second place,
Cause I hate bein' Number One...

He might have you now,
But I had you before...
You didn't say goodbye,
When you shut the door...
I'd forgive and I'd forget,
But I'm NOT that crazy...
I'll be laughin' my ass off,
When he starts to be lazy...

I'm NOT that happy,
But I'm not really sad,
Sorta like a lost soul,
Between good and bad...
I'm NOT that caring,
I pretty much hate it all.
Cause when I build my hopes up,
It all begins to fall.
I've learned to stay negative,
No sunshine for me,
Cause when the clouds start to darken,
Then I really see...

That I'm NOT what you wanted,
But I couldn't care less!
This song is to be happy,
And not to depress!
I'm NOT really open,
To your point of view,
Cause everything you say,
Ends with "I didn't mean to hurt you!"
So I sit here alone,
Thinking about our past.
What good times we had,
And how we wanted it to last.
But time and people change,
Just like an earthly season,
But you left on short notice,
And no logic to your reason.

I'm NOT like a character,
In some sort of myth,
You wanted a better person,
You could share your life with.
So I'm NOT Mr. Right,
I'm always Mr. Wrong,
But whenever you think of me,
Remember I wrote this song...

Send death...
One last breath...
It's taken you,
So suddenly...
But where does that...
Leave me?
Simple and plain,
Without your company...
What you see,
Leaves me troubled...
In fact,
You've doubled,
My pain...
But its plain to see,
You're not to blame...

What is this game we're playing?
Where did the pieces go...
Will I get out of hell?
Well I just gotta know...

Your voice haunts me,
But what's it all mean?
And who knows...
But its finally...
I say goodbye today,
But let us not forget...
Full steam ahead,
I'll see you on the other side...
Now set me down...
And hold my hand...
And welcome me...
To your new end...

What is this game we're playing?
Where did the pieces go...
Will I get out of hell?
Well I just gotta know...

Never been burnt,
Never one the type to burn...
Never been burnt,
Never one the type to burn...
Never been burnt,
Never one the type to burn...

It's the strength to love me a freak!

What a travesty...
When I try to see...
It is to be alive...

What a fantasy...
When I try to see...
It is to be alive...

(moan)
Is to be...alive...

(moan)
Is to be...alive...

(moan)
Is to be...alive...

(moan)
Is to be...alive...

(gunshot)
Is to be...alive...

Falling...
Falling...
Falling...
Until I hit the ground,
There isn't any sound,
No longer is it loud,
Pound for pound,
The concrete breaks,
And my soul it takes,
When the ground shakes,
And my body bakes,
In the sunlight,
Blinding my sight,
As fear turns to flight,
And in comes the night,
And the darkness falls,
And the doctor calls,
As I walk the halls,
Of the afterlife,
Gutted with the knife,
I can see this blight,
No way in,
No way out,
A maze of doubt,
A silent shout...

And still I keep falling...

Self destruction
Dont push the button
I didnt do anything wrong
The system cant take it
I never once faked it
I said I love you so
There keeping us apart
They say I am evil
I'm just a regular guy
They want to control you
And be more then parents
I say get out while you can
So many bad things started
I wanted you to escape
But your folks had a plan
To keep me away
And they blame your misfourtune on me
Everyone is screaming
For all the wrong reasons
And my mood is swaying
And changing like seasons
I want to hold you
And help you pull through
But your parents are keeping me at bay
So I take this time
To listen and say...

You'll come back into my arms someday...

Save me from myself.

I saw myself today...
I don't look right,
Displaced...
I am a shell on a beach shore...
The tide hasn't come,
To take me back,
Because I don't belong here...
I get dark,
And my soul lights on fire...
Friends turn to faceless enemies,
And the screaming,
That I yell,
Becomes haggared and I scream again...
Till I hurt and can breathe no more...
I am shady and quiet,
And loud and empty of light...

Where is this peace I hear of?
Where is my tranquility dammit?
Where is my real life,
Because I know I don't deserve this...

Someone save me from myself.

Please?

How do you make things real,
That are figments of nothing...
Created from something,
Not tasting nor touching...
For the thoughts are not real,
They are figments of something...
Created from nothing,
Not seeing nor loving...
Are you a figment of nothing,
Or something?
Something that breathes?
Like the air in the trees,
Or the waves on the seas?
Do you dream in nothing?
From something not loving?
Or nothing in nothing?
Are you in love?
With something above?
Not pushing to shove?
Do you get what you want,
By making figments real?
Does the love lack luster?
Or lose its appeal?
Grab what is real...
Like a quilt that is sown...
Or you may find yourself,
Cold, old, and alone...

Rejection has been,
A thing I found so dear...
More reliable then you,
As I drink this glass of beer...
You don't even know,
What kind of feelings that I've got,
I feel I work on change,
Drop a quarter in the slot...
I need to hear you talk,
And I need to see your face,
But you dont know me now,
And now I'm in last place...

Ya know...

I used to fall in love,
With everyone I met...
But now that I've met you,
I'm a completed set...
You think I'm just pal,
And you think I'm just a friend,
But the time to wait is through,
Please don't play pretend...
I want you to notice me,
Cause I yearn for your approval...
Please don't disregard me,
And bid for my removal...

Wake Up,
Please now...
I'm not a child anymore...
I'd catch you,
If you fell...
But now I'm on the floor...

Wake Up,
Please dear...
I'm not a friend anymore...
I want you,
Now that I,
Have become something more...

We played games as kids,
Like Life and Monopoly...
But now I'm three spaces back,
With $2000 dollar fee...
It's quite expensive,
Just to fall in love today...
I might have to pawn my heart,
Just to hear you say...
"I'm glad we're such good pals,
But you know I'm engaged..."
I am so helpless,
I cry and am enraged...

Ya know...

I used to wonder about,
Fate, Death and Life...
I learned my lesson,
Cause you filled it with strife...
I didn't know what I saw,
That was so precious in you...
But now I dont have a heart,
And my love is in two...
I think I should go now,
As I leave with a sigh...
But now I wanna find a place,
To curl up and die....

Dear scared little girl,
Whose sitting on her bed...
I beg of you now,
To stay strong...
Things get bad,
As I understand,
I know the pain all too well...
The images I know,
Are those of destruction,
For I can see,
The evil surrounds me...
It penetrates me,
Like a hot knife thru butter...
I want to help,
But I don't how...
I don't know why...

I am just as sad;
My thoughts ripped apart,
And spread across my mind,
Like animal entrails...
The thing you fear most,
Is probably,
Something we all have faced...
But I tell you this,
From my heart...
We...
I...
Love you Buffy very very much...

And whenever the darkness comes,
To haunt you...
The rest of us will help,
In anyway we can...
And we'll make sure...
That this darkness dies...

*HUGS*

Bombers rip...
Across the screen...
Laying waste...
To cities dreams...

And what's it all...gonna mean?
When audio sarcosis builds,
From the speakers comes,
And you can hear the music tear...
Tearing...through your bones...

Cause I'm just a crazy,
Mixed up kid...
Out comes the truth...
When you take of the lid...

And what's it all...gonna mean?
When audio sarcosis builds,
From the speakers comes,
And I can hear the music tear...
Tearing...through my bones...

Fast Food Frustration

I am so exausted,
My head aches,
From taking all these orders...
Screaming kids,
And foreign cash,
From across the border...
Speak up dammit,
I can't here you,
Over your diesel suckin' car...
Just pull up,
You f*cking bastard!
Wait! You drove too far!
I want to yell,
And throw the food,
At those bucktooth hoes...
With their 80's hair,
Their 70's glasses,
And their 60's clothes...
I make the sandwich,
Collect the cash,
And start to cook the fries...
Hey there's hair in that!
It's the wrong amount!
Gah! There's grease in my eyes!!!
Please let me count my drawer,
Get the last person,
And leave the place...
Sh!t! That's great...
Another car pulled up,
And now screaming in my face...
That's the last straw,
I quit this job,
And they can go to hell!
But I'll leave this job,
For five bucks more,
And go work at Taco Bell...

Box Dweller

I live in a box.
It has four walls,
Peeling with dried white paint,
And chipping with age.
I forget how I got inside,
But they wont let me out...
For there is no opening...
And no end to the walls...
I run and scream at them,
Pounding and scratching,
But nothing happens...
Someone told me,
I could use these words,
To bore a hole through...
I tried it for a while...
It didn't work,
For I forgot that people,
On the other end of the barricade,
Had to be listening...
In order for me to be free...
But I don't see,
That happening...
Anytime soon...

Remembering

I drop on my knees,
And rip open my shirt,
Letting the light hit me...
What did I do,
That was so wrong,
Why did they set me free?
I had a future,
In front of me,
But now I think it died...
And the girl that I loved,
Had disappeared too,
So cried, cried, and cried...

I know your here...
Out living out there...
Still thinking about it all...

I know I'm here...
Wishing I was there...
Still wondering about it all...

You had so much to do,
In so little time,
But they took it all away...
If I had the chance,
To save your soul,
I'd make sure you'd stay...
But I know that you're dead,
And sleeping real well,
And drifting peacefully...
But I know one day,
I will see you again,
And it'll be just you and me...

I know your here...
Out living out there...
Still thinking about it all...

I know I'm here...
Wishing I was there...
Still wondering how you are...

This poem is for anybody who has ever been screwed over massively by there job. Enjoy! 8D

You've lost your mind in the downslide...
Too many numbers,
Chaotic,
Sheets of paper...
And gallons,
Of demented liquor...
Not enough work,
To appease the corporate as$holes...
Pencil breaks,
And failed mistakes,
Always makes,
Less time...
To recreate...
Fresh ideas,
Turn black and crumple before your eyes...
Morons at the top,
And intellegence reaps the benefit,
Of becoming,
Bottom feeders,
And carrion eaters...
Lost total respect,
For their families,
And daily needs...
But even though,
They all laugh at you...
Take their own ammo,
And blow them away...
Learn to target,
A complete direct hit,
And always remember to,
F*CK THE BULLSH!T...

Havok
:)

We miss ya already Lerk!

Head layed back on the floor,
Staring up at the ceiling...
The faucet drips slowly,
As the clock spits clicks...
The carpet softly turns into,
Pinpricks,
Making you squirm as you lay there...
Incapacitated...
Your stomach churns,
You wait for it to pass,
But it doesn't...
Every limb seems to disconnect itself,
From your body...
Slowly breaking down...
A tear slips down your cheek,
But even crying,
Causes your body to internally cringe...
Be soon this will pass...
Like another day...
Your sick now,
But you'll get better...
Everything always does...

Doesn't it?

You've been shot,
Right out of the sky...
Never gave in...
Miles high...
I'm just a layer of sound...
Look what I found...
On my brand new jamming,
Intersound...
I know you'll find,
Piece of mind...
On my fun face race,
Interspace...
I'm the Silver Surfer,
Carrie and Lucifer...
Lay on the ground,
And nobody dies...

Ooh... Hey... Ooh...
Ooh... Hey... Ooh...
Ooh... Hey... Ooh...

While he attacks the brace,
Where the devil does his damage,
And the counting list...
It's like a belly twist...
Like a turn of my own reefer,
Make you sweat and curse,
And we travel for six weeks,
Around the universe...

Sweat and curse...
For six weeks...
Devil does his damage...
Around the universe...
I'll make you sweat and curse...

I'll keep travelin',
Stay in the shadows...
Listen again,
When I come by myself...

Ooh... Hey... Ooh...
Ooh... Hey... Ooh...
Ooh... Hey... Ooh...

Speed can break your neck,
Avoid the collision...
A real...
Clean...
Decision...

A run through the leaves,
As innocent as,
The chilly night...
Fresh pumpkin pie,
Served with ice cream,
Running over your tongue...
The cool fresh air,
Flowing into your body,
Refreshing your lungs...
A cup of coffee,
At the local diner,
With someone you love...
A warm smile,
And a few hugs,
From your girlfriend...

Life is good...