"inward analysis"

Fianlly managed to write something that kinda captures the way i've felt this week. *HUGS* Thanks for reading.
"inward analysis"
stretch--
yes,
the pain is there,
but i'm numbing
i'm too mind numbing
to feel it
walk with such grace
keep your face straight
ahead maybe tilted
to one side
and sometimes i wonder
how you've kept alive
years in the dark
feed off of nothing
burning away your skin
and your spirit
so little will left
so little thrill left
but I promised I'd keep you going
so many people but myself
cuz i never asked for you
and i never wanted you
so you better keep running
better keep on your feet
when you're facing me
i saw you
look him straight in the eyes
and keep on
moving
i was so proud
but you're not moving
anywhere but circles
makes me sad when i think
but i don't often think
because i'm numbing
so mind numbing
thought i'd be someone else
maybe after awhile
thought i'd grow up
and beyond
maybe after awhile
thought we'd be someone else
but i was deluded
as always
i'm still you.