Face Of Deception

I am so tired, but I just cannot sleep.
I try to open my eyes but they stop me.
I think I may not get as far,
Or anywhere as close as I need to.

Maybe I have already got there
And my eyes are not showing me yet.
Though I don’t know if they mean to help me,
Or if they mean to break my resolve.

Or could it be that I was always here
And the journey was all in my mind?
And you’ve been leading me all this time,
Or have I been leading myself?

Whatever the reason for my discontent,
If it be fact or fiction, or both
It will never be over when I am here
And you cannot be here by my side.

My mouth may never speak the truth,
And my ears may hear only lies.
And my feet stalk in riddles and my hands grasp in rhymes,
But my heart will never die.

My Circles

I am confused.
I can’t be sure, but I think it’s tomorrow.
Or maybe it’s Tuesday, either next or last,
And I’ve slept too long and I’m right back where I began.
Can you please help me work it out?

I am not happy.
I’m spinning in circles, turning back the way I came.
And then turning the same circle again.
I know why it’s like this, but I can’t change it.
I think I must be scared of the unknown.

I can’t comprehend.
I wake up in the morning, then go to sleep in the evening.
This routine is killing me slowly.
So I’ll go home and turn on the TV,
And get drunk and forget for a few hours.

I see an exit.
But it’s just out of my grasp, I reach but I can’t touch it.
The light is at the end of the tunnel,
I just can’t work out how to open the door.
I think I need the key, but I can’t find it.

I need something.
Someone to help me reach up and unlock the door.
You are so beautiful, you are so compassionate.
You understand who I am, and how I love you.
Your love could be the key to the door.

Please spin in my circles, I just want to see
If I can be all that they said I can’t be.
I’ll wait for forever, right here if need be.
Please help me to change, and to set my heart free.