The pain is nagging, and it takes you a very long time to realize what it is.
Is it the actual object that pains you?

No, that isn’t it. You don’t know what it is but you can feel it.
You can feel the truth buried deep, but it is hidden away, and you can’t find it.

And one day, it just hits you.
The truth rushes onward and it washes over you like a strong current.

It’s not the object, it’s that you don’t have it.
That’s it.

Then you realize that it isn’t true.
You haven’t let the whole truth hit you yet.

Finally the real, whole truth reaches you.
It’s not that at all, it’s who DOES have it.

People just like you.
But you don’t have it.

And if someone gave you the object now,
It wouldn’t matter.

Because the others had it first.
They weren’t better than you.

But they were chosen first.
And you were ignored.

The pain hurts now more then ever.
It isn’t a nagging anymore.

It’s a sharp stabbing pain that goes away with time,
But in it’s place is an aching pain that will never go away.

And it hurts because you don't know.
You don't know why.

But it hurts none the less.
The truth hurts.