"Sickly Morning"

(authours note: two lintballs in one day...my brain hurts. =P)
"Sickly Morning"
It may be a gain, but it feels more like a betrayal
Oh love, oh love, oh lover
Don't do this to me, I am not your angel, i am not
Made of pure light, you cannot trap me in a box,
My heart has bled red over the ground at my feet,
Has soaked the ground until i'm squishing in it,
I'm knee deep in sickly red earth,
Going back to the Red Earth from which i came.

You tell me this is the road to Heaven the path of
Light, Light, Light me up love
Let the flames cover me, let them swallow me, i am not
Composed of clearly cut lines, not put together as cleanly
As one might like or expect, and my tears are falling
Falling salty blue green over the world, like my eyes
Turned liquid and fallen from their sockets, spread out
Like an ocean whose waves lap at the shores of your heart,
Whose barren cliffs shut my tears out.

I am not a statue of gold, I will not be your false idol
I am frozen terrified on the pedestal, which is cracking,
Breaking, crumbling beneath my paralyzed feet,
Slivers of marble just falling, curled, bubbling, sizzling
In drips of acid that are really only your soul pouring from
Your flesh and onto the platform where you placed me,
A bride far too early on a wedding cake that has gone eternally
Uneaten, Not a marriage of people, not a marriage of earthly flesh
But a ceremony that tangled your tortured heartstrings with mine.

Hold me now in the early morning moments, before you awake
In entirety, before you begin again on your rants of my lack of
Direction in my life, on how Utterly Amazing i could be
Be with me just now and love me not for what i might achieve,
But for who i am now--It is the person i have always been,
It is the girl that i will always be
Wait here until the sun dawns on us, dripping gold across our too
Pale bodies, painting us bronze and dispelling the shadows that
Run jagged across my walls, dancing and laughing and reminding one
Of goblins, of monsters, of things we were taught to forget

And after that, after the sun has kissed us both one more time
You may stand up, you may cross the room,
And you may leave, as you had planned.