"chipped shoulder"

 muscles torn
from too much sleep
so tired
i'd sell myself for peace
all the medication in the world
and it couldn't cure me
want to sink through
the surface of this dream
[told me things could change
that i deserved
a little rage
and what did it bring me
but more pain...
we are always so deviously
so subtly the same]
i know the nightmares
call them by name
reality more frightening
caught in the game
all the saviors in the world
and i'd drown just the same
want to break out
of the rotting picture frame
[told me you gotta fight for what's yours
that i deserved some peace
between wars
and what did it give me
but a little more remorse
you see we only save
what we are forced]
hands on fire
still nothing comes
mind so tired
still nothing numbs
inside my head
truth still drums
someone break me
give me an excuse
to give up control
let the terror loose
but all the excuses in the world
and i'd still blame myself
how many others have fallen
that i could have helped
[you said i've got to love myself
that sometimes i need
to reach out for help
but you just cannot help someone
who can't help their self
i said sometimes i really feel
i've got no soul left to sell]
i could have ended the circle..
then and there...
now nothing lends me solace
and everything leads me nowhere