Night

By Jamison Robert Huebsch

I just can't seem to feel real enough tonight

Everything is only pain in this long night

It seems all I can feel is this pain

Hugging pillow tight while slash reign the skin of my arm

I don't know what I do to cope or deal

Can't stand just can't stand what I feel

Angry red marks, appear but they draw no attention this night

It wouldn't matter any ways

Nothing seems to go right

Just long for something to take away the pain
Take away this night

Always rocking alone in my darkened room
No time no worth to me getting better soon
Books surround me, encase me with their paper cuts
Words seem to be the only thing my blood is worth

Can't stand alone, but can't let anyone inside
I'll be damned any ways so why do I hide ?
I just want that ray of sunshine to fall on me
And everyone to finally see