"Before the Fall"

It's a darker one, I guess. First one I've written in awhile... Non-productivity is not cheering me any.. Anyways, enjoy. Comments, etc, always welcome. =P *hugs*
"Before the Fall"
It's August again
It will never be the same
In the twilight of the autumn
I can see that face
I can see my life
Laid to waste
They left me to die
But I struggled to live
Each day, a bitterness
That I cannot forgive
Seethes within me
Sleeps within me
Obscuring my vision
Of what can and cannot be
There's so many words
For someone else's lies
I could talk you in circles
And never show what's inside
I'm sick of being sick and tired
I'm sick of all this sickness
I'm ill to death with someone else's
Illness... with someone else's scars
With the evilness of someone else's
Mouth and heart..
I'm sick of being sick and tired
Sometimes I realize
I'm just so sick of being alive
Always crawling beneath
What everyone thinks of me
I feel like a two-way mirror
I feel like a self named zero
Maybe it's just August again
I need to take comfort in a friend
But can't you see..
I trust none at all
For I'm most wary
Before the Fall.