"Wretched"

Tangling my hair
Around my fingers
I could just pull it
From out my head;
Let it fall, red snakes
Bleeding over a black sky
Do you ever have a day
Where you just need
To cry?

Dancing with the shadows,
I can feel them again
Underneath my skin;
Don't you know by now?
I don't like to win.
But still I'm standing outside
Crying,
Let me out,
Don't let him in.

I'm stringing my heart on
The chain he gave me; I'll
wrap it up and send it to
him first-class super express regret
Remember, I can forgive
But never can
I ever
Forget.

Is it bad
That when I see him falling down
My first instinct is to just
Leave him on the ground?
Days like this,
My heart burns like a match
My mind goes like a fuse
And my soul decides it's just another
Toy that he can abuse

I'm clawing towards the surface.
I think I'll make it someday.
Maybe then his nightmares
Will start to fade away.