Emotional Suicide

Your lonliness is obvious
In the wasted tears that you cry
For a long forgotten lover
From years gone by

You lie to yourself
You dream and you pretend
That one day it will all be over
That your misery will end

Yet you cannot help yourself
You relive all the pain
And the scars on your broken heart
Are driving you insane

You don't learn from your mistakes
There's no one else to blame
Each time you pray for better
But it all turns out the same

Another lover leaves you
The same worn out routine
Another scar is all you get
For trying to live the dream

You know that it's no good for you
Yet you cannot run and hide
Some day it will get ahead of you
It's emotional suicide

Your persistance would be admirable
If it wasn't all in vain
But you're just blind and stubborn
A glutton for all this pain

You lie awake at night
You cry yourself to sleep
Because you cannot show the world
Those scars that run so deep

You put on such a front
You're all smiles in the public eye
Hoping to convince yourself
That it isn't all a lie

But hope is hardest to retain
After everything you've tried
It seems the only way out of this
Is emotional suicide.