"Birthday Ramblings"

As is normal,
I woke up way too early.
Glared at my alarm clock,
tempted to throw it out the nearby window
Which someone so thoughtfully left open for me
(i think they're trying to freeze me to death--
but this is paranoia, perhaps)
And then i realize that is indeed
My birthday, which does not cheer me much
Nor stir any enthusiasm in my sleep-deprived heart
But i gather me up and get me moving anyways.
The people who were predestined to give me presents
Have done so. The presents this year made me smile
Like i have not smiled in ages. Not that they were
extrordinarily great not expensive presents--i
smiled because they were presents of people who
were anxiously trying to show that they cared
about me, and this always sits well with me.
Now, on my actual birthday, i am expecting nothing more
Than a call from my mom, who is away in Florida,
A few dollars from my dad, who is not much in the way of creative presents,
A geometry test from my geometry teacher, bless her little soul,
A standardized test from the state of Pennsylvania, bless their multiple corroded souls,
And a callback from the audition i went to yesterday
That i am not really expecting but crying for anyways
All in all, it may prove to be interesting
It may prove to be hideous,
It may prove that birthdays are destined to be doomed
(as mine always seem to be)
But it also proves i'm one year closer
To being out all on my own.