These are four poems I've written since 11/30

These are four poems I've written since 11/30. No, nothing depressing in my life but they came to mind so I wrote them down. Feedback would be greatly appreciated.
Jaded Teardrops (of the Soul)

Drip, drop...
I think my heart just stopped,
I saw you walk away,
But saw the reaper come my way.

I ran and I cried,
Though no-one had died (except me),
I swear that I tried,
To keep you from going away.

I pulled away,
You pulled me near,
I saw you wipe away my (shallow) tears.

My heart is aching,
Your lips are lying,
Time's still moving,
But my soul is dying.

You left me cold,
My face is bare,
And only now is when I care.
I pushed too hard,
You pulled away,
I shot myself down,
But I'll die another day.

I hate myself,
But I love you dearly,
Your lips so sweet,
And your eyes so deeply,
Please come back,
I need you still,
Even though I've lost my will to.. Care

I still love you,
I'm still trying,
I can honestly say that I'm dying (without you).

But you don't care,
You don't love me,
You think you're so high above me,
You're too good,
And you're too perfect,
But you need a reality check.

I'm all alone,
The bed is cold,
My heart is old,
And you're nowhere near,
So all I have left is my.. jaded tears..



Lost Reminiscence

Watching and waiting,
Always debating,
Standing so near,
Standing so far (away),
I shed a tear,
I miss the light of day.

Opening my heart,
Opening my soul,
Both of which it was you that you stole.
Smashing my heart,
Smashing my soul,
Lost and confused,
With nowhere to go.

Wrapped in your arms,
I'm trapped in your grasp,
I'm gasping for breath.
Wrapped in your warmth,
I'm trapped by your coldness,
I'm choked by your kiss of death.

You're running away,
I'm running too,
You're running faster,
But I'm chasing after you.

I'm lost and I'm wailing,
My legs and my soul are trailing,
While my heart is flung against a wall,
And you can't even bother to call (me).

I hate you,
But I love you,
I need you,
But you scare me,
Like the blinding light,
And the fiercest storm,
You attack my being like a swarm (of bees).



Flaws

All my flaws,
All of my cares,
I stepped to the door,
And fell down the stairs (because of you).

You came into my life,
You opened the door,
You pissed on my heart,
And called me a whore.

Trickling down,
My stone-white face,
My blood-red tears,
Found their place,
Running down my endless cheeks,
Flowing over my skins minute peaks.

Down my neck,
That you choked so tight,
My wounds fade away,
As day turns into night.

Down my chest,
Over my breast,
It felt warm and soft,
Such as a sweet caress.

It permeated my skin,
Just as you had,
But I didn't love it,
Which is my greatest sin.

You took me for granted,
And I always complained,
Your views are so slanted,
And my clothes are blood-stained.

All of your flaws,
All of your cares,
You stepped to the door,
And you fell down the stairs (because of me).



Hooks

Cutting into me,
Turning slowly about,
The hooks are too deep,
I can't pull them out.

The hooks in me,
The traps that you set,
You played with my heart,
And said not to fret.

Running through me,
Piercing my skin,
You pull them out quickly,
And hook them back in (I won't ever win).

I'm running away,
You're reeling in the line,
They snag and tear my flesh,
And I let out a whine (As I fall)

I'm falling so hard,
With no way to stop,
I have no will left,
So I let myself drop.

I'm pulling them out,
You're putting them in,
Trying to get away,
But you always win.

I've stopped running,
I won't get away,
You've got a grin,
But I guess I'll just stay.

The holes in my skin,
The holes in my heart,
The holes in my soul,
The holes in everything.

Just like a tree,
With a rope wrapped around it,
It may get hurt,
But it always finds ways to grow around it.

All The Things You Said

All the things you said,
So often to my soul,
Made me wonder which path I tread,
And made me feel so old.

A gentle kiss,
A sweet caress,
The delicate closeness,
But it wasn't bliss.

The sun was shining,
But the shadows were closing (in),
You tried to pull fast ones (on me),
But I wasn't dozing.

You said something to me,
Said never before,
You said you would stay,
And I wouldn't be alone anymore.

Time passed us by,
As I watched the grass (grow),
I guess I waited too long,
Because you have a new lass.

Never would leave,
Turned into goodbye,
I suppose I could grieve,
But I won't let time pass me by (anymore).

Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to me,
But never again (never),
Will you see (inside my soul),
It's only meant for me.

A delicate balance,
Was shattered like glass,
It came down to goodbye,
Because you "had" to lie (to me).

For All The Times...

For all the times you've made me laugh,
You've made me happy (..thank you).

For all the times you've made me cry,
You've made me sit and wonder why (I stay).

For all the times you've made me angry,
You've made me what I hate to be (to you).

For all the times you've made me see,
You've made me see what I could be (with you).

For all the times we were close,
You made me see nothing else.

For all the times we were apart,
You left me with emotions ghost.

Of all the things,
I miss the most,
I miss your touch,
To feel you close (to me).

You're not too far,
But far away,
You'll be home,
At the end of the day.

When you get home,
Hold me tight,
Kiss my lips,
And I'll smile bright.

Of all the things,
I love the most,
I love your strength,
For not letting go (ever).

And for all the times I've let you down,
I'm sorry and I'll try harder the next time around.

Club Fight

You don’t know me
I don’t know you
You better stop running your mouth
And acting like a fool.

Keep talking like that
You feel like taking on anyone
One word more word and you’ll get slapped.
You picked the wrong someone (to talk shit to)

Liquid Courage aka booze
Looking for a fight
You feel you can’t loose
Son this just ain't you night

You pick a fight with the first person you see
You’re just another name to add to my list
That person happens to be me
Your mouth now has got you talking with you fists

So what? You’ve had a bad day
Drunk so much can’t even remember your name
Your mouth now has you in a bad way
You looking at some one who brings the pain

I duck out of the way
You swing and missed
As I said before this ain’t your day
Didn’t hit me and now your pissed

You swing at me again
I move out of the way with no effort at all
Dose this make you feel like more of a man
With one push you hit the wall

It’s just not your night
To me your just some drunk creep
Remember you started this fight
With one hit I send you to sleep

It Is Dark

I once held light in my heart
It imploded
I once had hope in my heart
It eroded
I smiled once in my heart
Now I'm frowning
Once love thrived in my heart
Now I'm drowning
The darkness spreads
In my chest
The murky black seeps
It makes a nest
I can't breathe
It hurts to think
I can't dream
It pushes(me)to the brink
I once was loved
Now it's lost
I once was loved
At what cost?

It is dark.

in the middle of nothing we think of something,
in the middle of something we think of nothing.

why is when we are doing something we dont take the time to think of nothing in particular,
but when we are doing nothing we always take the time to think of something better than nothing?

-think about it-

Aishiteru (I Love You)

How can someone do this to me?
Make me see the world so differently

Looking into your eyes make me feel whole
Like I could see into your soul

Wrestling on the ground like we’ve done before
Make me want you more and more

Running my fingers through you hair
Takes away all despair

How can holding you make me want you?
Making me know what you say is true

Some times the longing is too much
I just need to feel your touch

Now I hold you in my arms
I want to shield you from all the worlds harm

I once was lost, but now I have found you
The only thing left to say is I love you